Epiphany

Moving back to your "hometown" always holds some uncertainty. Especially when you had a crappy highschool experiance. Maybe that crappy experiance wasn't just highschool but a part of your childhood. And seeing as I'm pretty confident that there are maybe three people from highschool who read this blog and will understand what it is I am referring to - with out getting into specifics.

Everyone has a "bully" in their life. It make come in the form of a egotistical boss, the know it all friend who has the "my way or the highway" attitude or maybe even the passive aggressive "whatever" person who will inevitably hold a grudge. Perhaps your the "thug" in someone elses life and you didn't know it.

My "intimidator" from the past recently came back into my life. Well lets just say they where attempting to in a manner I could handle prior to last week. Then they changed the game. Contact was made (not the physical kind - but unpleasant none the less). They have attempted to make a place I was enjoying going somewhere that I don't want to be - due to the possiblity of running into them. This "goon" has had the ability to make me physically sick (reference the raging migraine that is working on dissapating). I spent some quality time on my own this morning soaking in the hot tub trying to figure out what I was going to do.

So here it is.. all the things I laid out as expectations still stand. Accountablity is required - not an option. It's not my fault that you feel like your missing out. You had the option to be included and chose not to rise to the occasion. Blindsiding is NOT an option. You may feel that because I was in a public place that it was ok to approach me. Next time don't smirk like you've won a prize because in reality - your just making it harder to reach. Certianly do not change the way the game is played... incase you failed to notice you do not hold the position of authority anymore. It's mine. I worked very hard to quell the anger and resentment I have towards you - it's up to YOU to not entice it back out of the closet. I do not see any benifit for me in continueing the game - there are only benifits for you. Therefor I have nothing to loose, while you have a lot to loose. I am not nostalgic for the way things where. And since that is the case - I'm not worried about what "might" be missing. I am happy with how my life has progressed since you chose the path you did. I have realized I don't need you or the other one who left long before you did. The choice is now yours and you have everything to loose in this battle of wills... I stand to loose nothing and refuse to put anything else of myself into this and you will not make things any rougher or unpleasant any longer.

Sigh of Relief

Yesterday was a very stressful day for Chris and I. Unsure about what the Orthopedic Surgeon (OS) would say about his back, and knowing this could impact Chris' plans career wise and my immediate plans for the next 8 months we were a little on edge yesterday.

Chris does have a herniated disc. It's not causing him pain right now, and the OS said it was very minor at this point (as we could see from the MRI scan). He did not see why Chris could not stay in an "up" status for now, and treat the pain as needed. He even perscribed a non-narcodic pain reliever that was extended release, that he assured us would allow Chris to fly with.

Now he just has to go back to the Flight Surgeon here on the base and fill her in as to what the OS said. So basically - he still has physical therapy but other than that - he should be good to go and the only major decision he should have at this point is if he wants to get an easy set of shore duty orders that will allow him to finish his degree (which means a possible move to FL) OR he takes a set of shore duty orders that allow us to stay closer to home for 3 years (recruiting duty - which means Junior and I will be home - and so will he although working 12-14 hour days).