I'm Through!

I’m tired. Tired of constantly being the one who “puts myself out” for other people. I’m great at meeting new people. But I guess I’m naive too. Because out of all the friends I make it seems most of them realize I’m a sucker. Yes a sucker whose personality doesn’t say no to anything, that volunteers herself to help people or do things when either I don’t necessarily want to or really have the time to.

I know some of the people who read this – will think that this applies to you. More likely than not it doesn’t. I’m not sure if the real reason or inspiration for this particular posting has access to my blog. And in the interest (my nice personality showing again) of the least amount of feelings being hurt I’m going to refrain from naming names. (I can assure you “Blog Stalkers” – you know who you are – this is in no way related to you ladies!)

Basically this blog stems from the feeling that I must be one of the easiest people to run over and some feel the need to do it with a steamroller. If I haven’t seen you in a long time – and there is a possibility of a missed connection, try telling me you are sorry you’re going to miss seeing me – not miss seeing my belly! Telling me this is not going to make me want to meet up with you. I have had enough issues with my ever expanding stomach that is currently more baby then fat (THANK YOU!), and given my own issues – I don’t need to hear that you are only interested in “how big” I’ve gotten. And that’s all I heard when you said you wanted to see my belly. In fact it pretty much ensures that I’ll do everything I can to not see you.

Also – doesn’t assume that when I say I’ve had issues that just means with the baby. Try asking about me and my health, because while I appreciate your interest in my child – he is not the only thing going on in my life right now.

And if I put myself out there to try and help you – don’t act like what I’ve done is no big deal. I may have put myself out more than what you witnessed or realized.

Friends call, email or write periodically to see how you’re doing. Most people who have spent even a small amount of time with or around me, realize I am pretty busy with school, but I usually find time to call or text people. If I take the time to call you or send you a text message, I was genuinely trying to catch up with you and see how you where doing. The least you could do is return a phone call or text me back to let me know what’s going on. Because when you don’t, it just goes to show me that our friendship isn’t as important to you as I thought it was. Or it just isn’t worth your time. I’m done with “one sided” friendships.