Ever since Junior was born, I have been struggling with what to do. I value my education and want to further it, however at the same time I feel the time spent on homework and classes right now takes away from time I could be spending with my son. I thought I would be able to get past this feeling of guilt (or mommy guilt as I call it) and be able to succeed in the online classes I'm taking. I thought that by this time I would be ahead of the game and be past the guilt. It just ain't happening.
After alot of soul searching and talking to my husband about it, I decided to withdraw from my classes. Well, he atleast heard me when I said this is what I felt I needed to do (for more reasons then I want to go into here). School is still important to me, and is something I plan on going back to. However I am not sure that nursing is what I am going to go back to. Nursing was something I've said forever I was going to do. I never gave myself other options, or atleast never considered them. And something that I have learned and can credit to a certain someone (who will forever hold it over my head that I was listening), is that my priorites have changed atleast for now, and I'm where I am supposed to be. Being a mom.
On a happier note, Chris and I decided that we are going to look into buying a house when we move to Florida. For various assorted reasons we've decided to buy a house rather then live on base. I wasn't too sure about this because we are only supposed to be at this next command for three years and that doesn't seem long enough to purchase a house, but my husband assures me it's an investment opportunity. The other bonus is that I will actually be able to paint! And decorate however I want to - and not worry about the various restrictions that housing puts on us!!! :)
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